Friday, January 25, 2002

One motley collection of thots that was.
I am all muddled up.
I will unravel the skein once I am back to my good ol self.

Business is a representative of the society. Its just that, its an very strong concentration of the extremes. You will find really cool people and you have find a lot of bastards.
Work and time for yourself are like doing a marketing project in an Operations Management lecture. I dont seem to be able to think well unless theres another bugger is blabbering somthing unrelated. I dont think you will enjoy the free time unless you are really busy the other time.
Along with the many things which sustain us, the new addition seems to be tension, once outta job, I really miss the tension. I miss the adrenaline rush.
New meaning for the day
Contemplation: Trying to impress yourself with your own thoughts.


Wednesday, January 23, 2002

I have been waiting for this post myself.
If you look at my blog most of it is very impersonal in nature, impersonating as a very personal blog.

SInce my team was fired. I have been thinking of venting my feelings online here. But, I am just not able to feel bad about the whole episode. I do feel completely useless if that is any consolation.

I think I would mature as a person. I will learn to take such things in my stride.
The only problem being, I have lived atleast the last few years of my life feeling needed and I liked being able to solve many a things (so i thot) but now when a company tells me that it doesnt need my services any more its more a hit on that notion than on my ego or on my professional acumen.

This episode will just push to work harder and I guess more importantly smarter. One important lesson is to look at the signs.
But I thoroughly enjoyed working with the team. After lying low for a few months under the tyrant, It was good fun letting myself go and doing good work and having fun.

I will miss the team, I will miss the friends that I made. I might miss the company.

Friday, January 11, 2002

I think more relationships are destroyed by just this word not even a feeling called Love.
Coz Love by itself is such a relation-specific concept, but Individuals always try to rationalise and compare it with relationships around them and their past relationships and confuse it all up.

Love which is supposed to bond people, more often than not ends up putting unimaginable and unrealistic pressure and requirements on both of them. There are supposed to be these actions that they have to do, which is more to satisfy the concept rather than any genuine need for those actions.

Ignoring that word, all you need a good relationship is just two sensible people. You dont need the right dream girl or adonis to have a sense of that "relationship". Leave your ego as when you leave ur footwear when you enter a temple. Ego is one the most important charectors in life but is not to be demonstrated always.

Thursday, January 10, 2002

"Whenever you find yourself on the side of the majority, it is time to pause and reflect."
Mark Twain

Heres a forward that I got about how a company policy is made, which is very true as to how social norms, customs also evolve.
Start with a cage containing five monkeys. Inside the cage, hang a banana on a string and place a set of stairs under it.
Before long, a monkey will go to the stairs and start to climb toward the banana. As soon as he touches the stairs, spray all of the other monkeys with cold water.

After a while, another monkey makes an attempt with the same result all the other monkeys are sprayed with cold water.
Pretty soon, when another monkey tries to climb the stairs, the other monkeys will try to prevent it.

Now, put away the cold water. Remove one monkey from the cage and replace it with a new one. The new monkey sees the banana and wants to climb the stairs. To his surprise and horror, all of the other monkeys attack him.
After another attempt and attack, he knows that if he tries to climb the stairs, he will be assaulted.
Next, remove another of the original five monkeys and replace it with a
new one.
The newcomer goes to the stairs and is attacked. The previous newcomer takes part enthusiastically.
Continue replacing the monkeys one by one, and watch the attacks continue, though none of the monkeys by now understands why.

After replacing all the original monkeys, none of the remaining monkeys
has ever been sprayed with cold water. Nevertheless, no monkey ever again approaches the stairs to try for the banana. Why not? Because as far as they know, that's the way it's always been done around here.

And that is how company policy or any superstitions or customs begin.

Wednesday, January 02, 2002

Join the army
Travel the world,
Meet interesting people
And kill them.

- Was watching "Apocalypse now" yesterday